I spent almost my whole life with the feeling I was too small, too short, as if I had taken one of the potions or eaten one of the sides of the mushroom that were so conveniently available in the world of Alice. But I would always have the share that would make people shrink.
Growing up takes time, it takes years, and I guess it is like that because we need to get to know the surface and limits of our bodies. It´s funny, but, as I was reading a book, and this happens a lot to me, I find in a book something that I was thinking about, And I love this, the wonders of coincidence! Anyway, as I was going through Monsieur Test, by Paul Valèry, I came up with this:
"During our childhood, we get to know ourselves slowly, by discovering the space occupied of our bodies, by expressing its singularities through a series of physical efforts".
We get to conquer the height we reach inch by inch, by exerting great efforts to overcome limits of the physical world around us. Existing and thriving requires lots of stamina: By falling, we learn the principle of gravity. By pushing our limits, we learn the principle of inertia.
I don´t know if I wasn´t able to test and discover the limits of my body to its fullest extent as I was growing up, so I was always unable to feel I was 5 ft, 6.9.
Few days ago, it all changed. All of a sudden, I felt 5 ft, 6.9 in for the first time. As if my innerself had finally taken the entire area of my body, not a small part of it. I was fully 5 feet, 6.9 inches tall.
It took me 44 years to grow up.
"During our childhood, we get to know ourselves slowly, by discovering the space occupied of our bodies, by expressing its singularities through a series of physical efforts".
We get to conquer the height we reach inch by inch, by exerting great efforts to overcome limits of the physical world around us. Existing and thriving requires lots of stamina: By falling, we learn the principle of gravity. By pushing our limits, we learn the principle of inertia.
I don´t know if I wasn´t able to test and discover the limits of my body to its fullest extent as I was growing up, so I was always unable to feel I was 5 ft, 6.9.
Few days ago, it all changed. All of a sudden, I felt 5 ft, 6.9 in for the first time. As if my innerself had finally taken the entire area of my body, not a small part of it. I was fully 5 feet, 6.9 inches tall.
It took me 44 years to grow up.
